Soul Collision

Souls are genderless sensual, sexual beings, and for sure they are all heart. They carry their own flavor and have a distinct imprint on other souls! 

Their proclaimed sexuality - for lack of a better word - is mainly out of the desire for union, the intensity of which can be of a rather nuclear nature. 

The collision of two souls in the higher realms has in itself  huge transformative potential. "Light upon Light" they sometimes call it, and it surely is a most beautiful thing...

قُلْ يَا عِبَادِيَ الَّذِينَ أَسْرَفُوا عَلَى أَنفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا مِن رَّحْمَةِ اللَّهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًا إِنَّهُ هُوَ الْغَفُورُ الرَّحِيمُ

عبرة يونس

عندما ذهب يونس مغاضبا و ترك مائة الف او يزيدون في الضلال التقمه الحوت
و استغفر ،فغفر له 

"لا اله الا انت سبحانك، اني (كنت) من الظالمين"
اعتراف ؟ نعم
توبة و ندم ...نعم

لكن الاهم ،يونس اعلن انه لم يعد من الظالمين
غفر لنفسه اولا الذنب ، اخرج نفسه من فئة الظالمين ،قبل ان يغفر الله له

صدق اولا تصدق ،كل ذنب قابل للغفران
و الغفران يبدأ منك
اغفر لنفسك اولا ، تنل مغفرة الخالق تاليا

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Self-forgiveness is the prerequisite for any other kind of forgiveness! They tell us to forgive others to purify the heart and live in a state of peace. But how can we grant forgiveness to others when we can not grant it to ourselves? We simply can not give what we do not have. We need to extinguish the guilt within us first and drop those heavy weights to be able to soar up high

What are we all sooo afraid of?

"Ohh, we are all afraid of our shadows. We are afraid of the darkness inside of us. 

So, we project it outside of us, and we have to go fight these monsters that we have projected outside. And again, part of the mystical journey is to face that darkness. You need the sword of your own aspiration to go into the darkness of yourself and to face that darkness. Then you discover that it not that dark after all. Then you begin to discover the light that is hidden in the darkness. 

This one of the great alchemical secrets. This is one of the secrets of human transformation, that you go into the darkness and it is terrifying at first, and then you discover the light of your own divine nature that is hidden in the darkness.
It is called the pearl of great prize that is at the bottom of the ocean. In the depths of darkness there is something so beautiful, but most people are afraid of it because there is a price to pay. You have to confront your own fears, your own anxieties, and to go deep within yourself. It is much easier to project it and to have enemies outside. But for the mystic there is only himself"

Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee

Real Knowing

                           When you know pure love...
                                  
                                                                                                                            you know God!

Adoration

floating in a cloud of adoration

a love stemming from the deepest depths it seems

from a place that is very calm

a place where no rivers of emotion flow

nor any tingling sensations arise

It's a place of nothingness 

this adoration is not directed towards anything in specific

and it feels drunk to be submerged in its mist 

it's like a subtle sense of harmony

a sweet state of being 

that dilutes any other feeling 

a state of adoration of the formless

or is the adoration itself formless

I really do not know

Marrakesh Night Market - Loreena McKinnett

They're gathered in circles
the lamps light their faces
the crescent moon rocks in the sky
The poets of drumming
keep heartbeats suspended
The smoke swirls up and then it dies

Would you like my mask?
would you like my mirror?
cries the man in the shadowing hood
You can look at yourself
you can look at each other
or you can look at the face of your god

The stories are woven
and fortunes are told
The truth is measured by the weight of your gold
The magic lies scattered
on rugs on the ground
Faith is conjured in the night market's sound

Would you like my mask?
would you like my mirror?
cries the man in the shadowing hood
You can look at yourself
you can look at each other
or you can look at the face of your god

The lessons are written
on parchments of paper
They're carried by horse from the river Nile
says the shadowy voice
In the firelight, the cobra
is casting the flame a winsome smile

Would you like my mask?
would you like my mirror?
cries the man in the shadowing hood
You cna look at yourself
you can look at each other
or you can look at the face of your god

Marrakesh Night Market Lyrics 

Stars

When you have souls as bright as stars orbiting your center

weaving a web of silk that centers your being even more with their gentleness

you can only implode with eternal gratitude and humility

Pure Emotion

Pure emotion stems from a place not tainted by worldly matters, not shadowed by layers of illusion

Pure emotion is not defined by a subject or object

It stems from a deep place within, a place beyond the veils

It is free, boundless, and beyond form

It is even deeper and truer than your hearts deepest desire

It transmutes particles in the dimensions around by the mere force of its purity

Pure emotion can only come when we reach a place of complete effortlessness

It is only then and from that place that it can flow

Pure emotion is a state of being in itself

You have no idea what you are

It was the onset of the evening, on a boat cruise somewhere in the world. She was cleaning up someone else's mess, taking out a big bottle of water cleaning up the surface.. adding more and more  water..totally engulfed in the task. 

Until he grabbed her putting his arms across her chest diagonally pulling her closer towards him and saying as if announcing to the world:

"You have no idea, what you are. You are divine, because anyone who wants to get close to you is actually wanting to reach out to the divine through you"

Cleansing 22 October 2016

I send all shadows into the light and sound in all moments

I release mourning love in all moments

I release living on the fringe of love in all moments

I purify myself in divine light in all moments

I dance and sing in the center of divine love in all moments

The Spirit of the Backpacker...

The Spirit of the Backpacker... You are in your wide, purple, shabby but comfy cotton pants, leather brown hiking sandals, a dull grayish jacket is rapped around your waist, and an orange scarf his hanging around your neck. A waist pack with your passport inside, touches the camera strapped across your shoulder, while every little thing you own in this country is stuffed inside the Backpack with ur sleeping bag attached. You definitely look weird by normal standards, but right there and then..there's so many of you that you could never stick out. Around you the scarf might be green instead of orange, the pants shorter or longer, the sleeves rolled up, or torn off, the backpack "Katmandu" instead of "The North Face", the camera is a "Canon" and not a "Sony", the old hiking sandals are flip flops but worn out all the same, the colorful thread anklet is a coppery oriental bracelet, an eye brow ring or, or a funky pendant…. You look around you and absorb the mess of colors and shapes and you give a relaxed smile. At the border a long line of those outrageous eccentric looking creatures extends to your horizon, all dragging their heavy luggage waiting for the immigration stamp. It takes an hour and half till your turn  comes, and people start taking out thick books, and they start reading them. Standing in line with a book in your hand ?? ….how "nerdy" is that? Yet these people are not exactly what you call the nerdy type, having all those tattoos and body piercing done all over the place…. You look at your passport and you notice other peoples' passports: red, burgundy, green, navy blue, that go with all those skewed foreign accents, polite gestures of the philippinoes, the noisy chatter of the Scots, or the outrageous laughter of the Italians… In the bus after the "holy" stamp has been granted to you, you see them reading all those different genres of books. Books about Isaac Newton, The future of the universe, the structure of the Cambodian society, political change in eastern Europe, artificial intelligence, Zen Buddhism, comic books, the sacred architecture of Angkor Wat, the art of foot massage, Armageddon…or a love novel. In the night train, you sit across from a person, a couple, or a group, and you start talking. They tell you they had been traveling for 2 months, 3 months, and 9 months. Been to this and that place,… are going to the same island as you,… thought Lao people to be the most peaceful, loved Cambodian folklore dance, enjoyed the waterfall, thought the elephant show sucked, or just hated Vietnamese seafood. When the waiter comes with food while you are sleeping, a stranger, but a fellow backpacker makes sure to wake you up or keep your food for you. They share their stories, impressions, tips and anecdotes with you and are eager to hear your own. People from two rows behind are interested in the conversation and come over to join a night of chatter before everybody goes to their bunks for sleep. On the night train you meet different people with different accents, different social and ethnic, religious and educational backgrounds, but they all hold on to the same "traveler's bible" in different editions, versions and languages… reciting it, agreeing or disagreeing with it…but still the "the lonely planet or the rough guide" remain the main references for everybody. The nice memories and flash backs come alive when you chat, and the thrill and excitement of the coming adventure or destination set the common ambiance…you all share one thing…a deep desire to take in more of this world, of its people and to have your soul break or broken free in the process…this is what I call the common spirit, "the Spirit of the Backpacker" shared among total strangers…yet, you never feel they are strangers. They are just like you…a backpacker roaming the lands! Noha El Shoky Jan 23, 2005

The Quail and the Exodus

On a day in March 2004 I was watching the sunset on a boat in the Nile going to backto our hotel in Aswan. We saw many fleets of those small birds flying

north. We were watching their flying patterns and how a leader was

always appointed to lead the entire group. They all kept the same

distance from one another in that long line.

At that time we thought of ducks, doves and quails, as those

intelligent birds that recognize the earth magnetic fields to

determine direction, as if using a compass.

I was told that the phenomena was until now not quite understood

(although I remember something like a metal particle being embedded

inside skulls of migrating birds). Any feedback!?

But then I was also told that migrating birds sometimes follow basins

of rivers as their guide and source of their pray of fish along the

way.

Watching those -to me- tiny birds fluttering their wings, all at the

same time, with the same rhythm, I thought to myself….."those strokes

must make the birds LOSE SO MUCH ENERGY until they reach their

destination.."

A week later I was having dinner with South African friends when one

of them saw QUAIL on the menu, and showed extreme interest.

I knew that in some European cultures pigeons / quails are not eaten

at all, and if you happen to find a place that serves them, then you

would be ordering yourself the ultimate delicacy.

So, the idea of trying out a quail seemed extremely exotic to him and

he asked me if they tasted good. He said he was interested in tasting

the quail since it had been MENTIONED IN THE BIBLE. He talked about a

MIRACLE caused by God for the Jews as they were hungry.

The story and miracle is about the Israelites having craved eating

flesh for a long time roaming the deserts, when God sent quails

FALLING on them from the sky. They were happy and ate a lot of quail.

But then God's anger caused many of them to die. It was an EPIDEMIC

DEATH, where they dropped dead with the flesh still in their mouths.

The story and miracle is about the Israelites having craved eating

flesh for a long time roaming the deserts, when God sent quails

FALLING on them from the sky. They were happy and ate a lot of quail.

But then God's anger caused many of them to die. It was an EPIDEMIC

DEATH, where they dropped dead with the flesh still in their mouths.

So, why was the (scientific / historic) investigation of this miracle

mentioned in the Bible so important? It was important for some people

since this incident if dated properly would help in determining when

the Exodus took place.

Well, investigating quails they found out that quails:

- migrate southwards from Europe in the fall and northwards in

spring time.

- stuff themselves with food before migration as a preparation

for their journey, which makes them put on up to 50% more of their

initial weight, they get plump.

- The body structure of quails (especially after getting plump)

is not aerodynamic, this is why they rely a lot on winds to push them

in their way to their destination.

- By the time the birds pass by El Arish they would be

extremely tired and let them selves pushed down to the ground by the

east wind. There and then many of them are usually caught in nests /

or shot down at El Massaeed village. (An explanation for God having

quails FALLING down from the sky on the Israelites)

- Reading in the internet some people say (or want to prove)

that this miracle and epidemic had happened near Mount Sinai, Sheikh

Awad and Baqb El Hawa. The assume that the people who died there

were buried in the area on the spot. 

- Some quails when eaten have proven to be poisonous. Reason

has been unclear for some tine but one theory suggests that in the

spring time when the birds make their way from Central Africa back to

Europe they would have eaten a certain grain in Central Africa, that

is not poisonous to the bird itself but to some people who eat the

bird itself according to the person's physiology. (An explanation for

the epidemic death of Israelites).

That day after having read those things on the net I went back home

to find out of all days of the year mum had grilled some quail for

usJ So, I immediatly asked her where she had gotten them from. She

said there are some quail farms (so I knew at least they did not eat

that grain from Central AfricaJ.

But then I thought about those domesticated quails, whose breasts I

assure you were plumber than those of pigeonsJ

Mon 8 March 2004

A Message from Cambodia

By all means...this is not the right time for her to travel. 
The plane should take off exactly one week from now to this other part 
of the world. 

Right now, she has no money for this kind of thing. She would be unemployed in a few weeks time with no other new contracts in the horizon. It was a gloomy period, her being worried about covering 
her expenses until she finds a new job, in that very specific field. 
She was desperately hopeless and depressed. 

She didnt have any days off left for an annual leave, and her boss 
was out of town to be able to even ask him for the favor of letting 
her travel before contract end.

It is high season and all plane seats had been booked 3 months in 
advance. No seats on international flights free. For that country 
all train tickets were sold out for internal transport, internal 
flights were also out. Her friend who lives there and had arranged 
for the very tight schedule of the trip to share with a third friend 
was out of town and couldnt help solving any problems. She had to 
find transportation for the exact timing otherwise she wouldnt be 
able to spend the vacation with them.

Her passport has been missing for two years. She has no time to have 
a visa issued

Yet, they kept telling her to try and join. She just decided that 
within that week she should try her best and see what comes out of 
it.

For some reason, she gets a good job offer to shut up all the 
worries about future, career, independence and stuff.

The other day she finds her passport. Apparently it had been moved 
to the balcony with the old books as they were decorating their 
house.

She sends an email to her boss without any hope, yet he miraculously 
agrees to let her travel. He also gives her an unexpected 
compensation to travel with.

She manages to get herself internal flights from Cairo instead of 
the fully booked trains. And gets the extra open end plane 
reservation her friend had for contingency.

She manages to get a visa, and one day before departure she asks 
them to make it a multiple entry and she succeeds.

And, one week from that date, looking at the clouds from the planes 
window she cant believe she could actually make it. Many of her 
friends were all I disbelief. Many thought she would never make it.

She has the nicest time with her two friends, only interrupted by 
her parents getting worried about her cuz she was at one of those 
countries where the Tsunami hit.

She spends new years on the shore of a beach, three nicely dressed 
girls sitting there watching Chinese lamp shades being blown out in 
the air to shine, chatting, legs wiggling down the wall to the 
beach, only struggling with the international phone card to wish 
their families a happy new years.

She has been asking everybody from the locals about a fortune teller 
without any success. She forgets all about it. But then on her way 
to the airway office she bumps into this Sikh guy with a large 
turban, who tells her her mothers name. He tells her intimate 
details about herself. He gives her the advice of life and tells her 
to pray as her own religion dictates together with meditation. He 
tells her its faith. The secret is to have the real faith in God. 
With that you can withstand anything cruel life might throw at you.

She crosses the border overland and alone. She visits a major dream 
of her life and dwells in the amazing rich history combined with 
exciting beauty of the place. She counts her blessings once more for 
being able to do that in this life time.

After having done all the sight seeing, mingling with the locals and 
breathing in the culture of the place she takes a walk. She walks 
along this never ending street, her lonely planet guide tucked in 
her Rucksack, she has no idea where this street leads to.

She strides forward watching the people in their homes, the plants, 
the Buddhist temples, the children on bikes. It must have been 3 
hours or so since she been walking aimlessly when she bumps into a 
sign saying "institute for revival of traditional khmer silk". She 
of course goes inside.

She meets this Japanese volunteer who shows her around. He tells her 
that out of 1700 original patterns only 300 survived the war. And 
now they are barely trying to save those 300 left. She watches the 
golden pure silk died using only natural dies, spun, dried, woven, 
by older women who show younger ones. She takes a lot of pictures 
and talks with the women.

The Japanese volunteer asks her to go up to have a look at the 
products. She tells him she had no money to buy things now, he 
insists.

He leads her to a big piece hung on the wall and tells her to come 
forward for him to explain the designs on their most precious piece. 
He points to a structure and tells her they believe it to be either 
a temple or a mosque. She sounds very surprised! Mosque? How come in 
this Buddhist country? He says wait, and points to two blank stripes 
framing the piece, and says: we think this is a mosque, because we 
think those blank lines used to be Arabic writing but we 
unfortunately have lost them, we do not know how to make them so we 
produce the piece as it is and leave these two lines blank.

She is very surprised of what she is hearing and asks him, weather 
he has a picture of the original design somewhere. He says: yes, and 
gets out so many old books flips through their pages, page by page, 
the dust flying out with the motion of paper, until he finally 
exhales. Here it is. he says, and hands her the picture in the old 
ruffled book.

She takes a look at the picture and to her shock, those first and 
only words in Arabic that shock her eyes.. لا الله إلا الله محمد رسول الله

She is not excited anymore, she is in shock thinking what was it 
that brought her, the all time skeptic, to this part if the world, 
to walk down this particular unknown street, have her find this 
unadvertised institute, only to read those words after being away 
from anything Islamic for one month living a totally different 
culture.???

How come it was her, who neatly wrote out those exact words again 
for the older women to reproduce in the lands of Buddha...It must 
have been a conspiracy, such things do not happen just like that. 
They happen for a reason, we sometimes just need to listen...

Noha El Shoky
12-06-05